For my emotion's sake,

I've decided to BLOG! (: I think I'm in need of an avenue to express my thoughts and feelings and I want people to read ( I guess?) about me so that I won't seem overboard for what I do when people out there understands what kind of emotional struggle I'm going through at some weird random periods of time. Yep so here it is! I guess I'll keep it simple, cause simple is good :p

(P.S. I shall blog in a more mature way to improve my expression LOL)

Just done some random personality test and found out that I'm a SUPER DUPER EMOTIONAL PERSON hahaha (not like I didn't know but ohwell!) Come think about it I've changed a lot since young, I was bossy and totally a tyrant. Now I've got split personality. With people I just got to know I'm an extrovert and people think I'm optimistic but when you get to know me.. hahaha I turn so emotional that you get annoyed with me (bad bad bad..) Aiyah either way, I think I've changed for the better, in general. Thank God for growing me (: -claps hahaha-

Got angry today (hmmm is it PMS? LOL) but ohwell soon got over it. Somehow I'm super (and some might call it overly) forgiving towards certain people, and I'm super (and some again might call it overly) unforgiving towards some other people. It's weird and subjective, ya know. Might think it's unfair. Still, what to do? I'm human, I'm unjust! But well I'm trying hard to conquer this problem hopefully it'll get better 8) YEP!

I got another problem of being too emotionally affected and controlled.
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I moodswing a lot (and I mean A LOT. Some might understand when they experience it first hand) and it gets me unproductive and grudgy and all. I always brainwash myself to think that I'm emotionally healed. But when something else comes along that's as bad or even worse, my hurt doubles. Triples. I don't know how much it weighs me down, how it makes me fail to accomplish my plans, how much it affects me. To put it figuratively, I put a plaster over my wound and think I'm fine. When the plaster drops off, the wound gets infected and history repeats. The emo and all time low period comes along and I rot away in a corner. BIG PROBLEM. I need to solve it big time. Once i conquer this I can do lots more (!!) I SO BELIEVE IN THIS. By God's grace I shall change for the better. (:

I am so convicted to grow! (I always say this and rot away somehow but it's gonna be different this time)

On a lighter note,

DAVID ARCHULETA IS COMING TO SINGAPORE! :DDDDDD

Still wondering how I can get to see him. Timings clash like mad ): Anyone wants to go with me? (: MUCH APPRECIATED hehe (: I conclude he's the first guy I've gone so mad over. Cross my heart! He's so squishy and huggable and cute and awesome heh <3