Just a random thought,

After hurting my thumb I realised that I can't flip my Bible properly during teachings and its really really annoying!

I conclude I should stop being emotionally dependent on people just like how I'm physically dependent on my thumb lol.

We are young and we are strong!

awww poor salesman got pwned by me ):
ROFL
anyway, thank God I got a new luggage hahaha yay! (the small one). If I didn't i'll have to bring th bigbig one to malaysia. MP will totally think I brought that to store my food up or something TSK! And just for a rough gague, that luggage comes all th way up to my waist :o $%^&* LOL.

That's Purry on the extreme left, Dapple on the right and papa's random luggage in th middle :p

Dapple is a new (uh actually not really) Mickey in my house that has joined the PET FAMILY of my BEAR FAMILY! Yay lol uh. From cousin Weelin (: Don't know why she doesn't want it anymore or rather give it to me. Either way I'll take care of him cause he's big and adorable hahaha!

Went meet Cruise at Clementi to get my PE shirts yay! Then CHL''s house's hawker centre to have lunch. While waiting for her I saw papa's lorry zooooom past me ROFL was superrrrr epic. Urm then 61 to Queens (: Spent $39 on fbts omg -.- Then went for hair extensions WHAT THE HECK MY COLOUR IS FREAKING OBVIOUS MAN it was only after I paid then I realised I didn't even choose my own colour. How retarded wowww. Then 51-MRT to IMM and bought Purry! Damn epic. The salesman talked to me patiently at first but slowly lost interest in me thinking that I'm just a kid and I was there having a brief look at the designs and then going home to try and persuade my parents to buy the one I wanted. He even told me that there were other shops I can consider, WHAT THE HECK. Purposely wanted drive me away so I won't pester him since he won't get his commission, tsk. In the end I chose my luggage and told him I WANTED TO BUY IT AND BRING IT HOME IMMEDIATELY then he totally.. :|. LOL stupid guy got pwned! :D CHL HIGH FIVE WE ROCK ROFL.

Malaysia tomorrow 8)

Crap just realised stomach's growling like mad and I haven't prepared dinner CRAPCRAPCRAP.
And I need to wash clothes and pack luggage, still. Grah ):

Falling stars,

Okay I admit I'm such a sucker after soooo long STILL addicted to David Archuleta's album ):

David Archuleta-Falling Stars

When you forget me
And you don't remember my name
Not even a memory
Somewhere in the back of your brain

I won't be offended
Cause I always knew that the day
Would come when I'm not enough to
Make you stay

Tell me it's not possible
No way that we could pray
But nothing is illogical
Believe me

Like falling stars over your head
We were bound to burn up alive
Crashing cars, I'll never get over you
Never over you cause you are so
Beautiful

The world is turning
And time keeps on lingering on
The sun will be burning
Eventually you will be gone

I'll always love you
Oh, believe it or not
But baby that's not enough to
Not enough to stop these

Falling stars over your head
We were bound to burn up alive
Crashing cars, I'll never get over you
Never over you cause you are so
Beautiful

When it's all said and done I'll be
Just a speck in the galaxy
Floated far (far) away by gravity

Tell me it's not possible
No way that we could pray

Like falling stars
Like crashing cars

Like falling stars over your head
We were bound to burn up alive
Crashing cars, I'll never get over you
Never over you cause you are so
Beautiful

You are so beautiful, yeah.

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ORIENTATION TEE CRISIS OH GOSH mp is soooo fussy about attire we all have to wear the same thing ):

I can hardly wait,

I cook the meals, sweep the floors, do the laundry and MORE!

Laoma, Jia, Yang and even Kakak are alllllll gone now gosh. I'm left alone at home with Laoba. Day 2.. Good experience heh. Feel satisfaction when I taste my own dinner and it's edible (very edible wahaha) yep! Still got 2 more days to go I think I'll survive well (: It isn't very hard, just tiring!

Zwest outing on monday, Shepherding yesterday and Lifegroup today! Wah God has been really good to me recently (: THROW ME ALOT ALOT ALOT OF TROUBLES, (not kidding) but I've grown I guess? Many stuff I respond differently to nowadays and even I'm surprised by my reaction to things yay! Thank God for all the blessings (: and YES DMM!

Lazy to elaborate though I had the mood just now. Hot Dog Bush is fun and it's taking my attention away from this thing haha 8)

Tomorrow match ): JIAYOU THUNDER AND LIGHTNING (:
Kay that should be it for now (:!

Meant to be,

Randomly browsing blogskins then I don't know how I end up digressing to youtube and listening to Varsity Fanclub songs. Realised this song hits me alot. Well Jia complains that the lyrics are too repetitive (thus boring and not nice >( ) but I find it so heartwrecking that I can cry listening to it.

Hi people if yall don't know VFC yet should go and listen to their songs cause they rock 8) They can sing and dance and THEY ARE HOT TOO hahahaha!

Top left: TC Carter
Top middle: Drew Ryan Scott
Top right: David Lei Brandt
Bottom left: Jayk Purdy
Bottom right: Bobby Edner

There are many versions of lyrics and honestly I've no idea which is the right one. But well this one I like best so I'll just assume this is the hundred percent correct version hmmm. The problem with not having an album. Everyone is arguing what are the correct lyrics tsk.

Varsity Fanclub-Vanished

I'm reaching
I'm reaching for the love I lost tonight
And I don't know why
You're right here
You're right here but you seems so out of sight
It's messing with my mind

You used to freak with me
You once believed in me
But now I'm incomplete
Thought we were meant to be

Where did you go?
Where did you go?
Where did you go?
You vanished

I'm wondering
something that you said would never die
Has lost its life
It's frightening
Thinking how I opened up to you
But now it's turning too

We were the best of friends
That's why this pain won't end
And this is killing me
Thought we were meant to be

Where did you go?
Where did you go?
Where did you go?
You vanished

You're mistake of magician
Wave the wand, now you're missing
Where'd you go, Where'd go, Where'd go?
Wish I could bring us back
Just who could picture it
But it's too late for that

Where did you go?
Where did you go?
Where did you go?
You vanished.

Cause you remind me of a ballerina dancing on a wire,

I'm on the computer to type Randall's script but I've got no mood now. Msn is not working and I'm angry >(

Editing script..

I'm stuck don't know how to continue.

Blehs yesterday wasn't very much constructive but I'm glad and thankful that I got to spend some quality time with Jia and Yang hehe. I LOST THE MONOPOLY GAME TTM ): Nevermind all goes back into the box meheh xD

Tomorrow's David Archuleta autograph signing heh I WANNA GO! Laoma says people that go are no life but urm apparently her dearest son being under tremendous influence from me, is an Archie fan too hoho and even he wants to go LOL! Usually if I wanted to attend such stuff even he will discourage Laoma to approve me. But without his awesome influence over Laoma.. heh bigger chances now 8) I wanna see him sing! And Zhao is gonna RSVP today he better go too or Yang and I will be like freaking obiang there or something tsk.

HAHAHA Jia is sightreading Wedding Dress on the piano downstairs I can hear it from here! YES my sphere of influence is expanding ROFL. What so big deal anyway. Ah just feeling random. Teehee!

I should go and write cards for my lifegroup tonight after tuition (noooo tuition making me miss Archie's singing ): -pokes finger-) Must find some way to pass Zhi Ying and MiniJiamin their cards before their A's end ._.

Friday's lg was simple 3-4 people cause everyone else had CCA and all sorts of random weird things coming up. Nonetheless it was good I guess? I am happaye that God gives me inspiration on how to do roles :p and when lg's good, it doesn't matter even if you're the one doing the forfeit HAHAHA! Hope zwestc1 can continue to grow in quality and quantity jiayou everybadae -shakes hips-

Okay time for me to get back to script. Urm or maybe after breakfast? :p

Got random urge of singing hmmmm.

For my emotion's sake,

I've decided to BLOG! (: I think I'm in need of an avenue to express my thoughts and feelings and I want people to read ( I guess?) about me so that I won't seem overboard for what I do when people out there understands what kind of emotional struggle I'm going through at some weird random periods of time. Yep so here it is! I guess I'll keep it simple, cause simple is good :p

(P.S. I shall blog in a more mature way to improve my expression LOL)

Just done some random personality test and found out that I'm a SUPER DUPER EMOTIONAL PERSON hahaha (not like I didn't know but ohwell!) Come think about it I've changed a lot since young, I was bossy and totally a tyrant. Now I've got split personality. With people I just got to know I'm an extrovert and people think I'm optimistic but when you get to know me.. hahaha I turn so emotional that you get annoyed with me (bad bad bad..) Aiyah either way, I think I've changed for the better, in general. Thank God for growing me (: -claps hahaha-

Got angry today (hmmm is it PMS? LOL) but ohwell soon got over it. Somehow I'm super (and some might call it overly) forgiving towards certain people, and I'm super (and some again might call it overly) unforgiving towards some other people. It's weird and subjective, ya know. Might think it's unfair. Still, what to do? I'm human, I'm unjust! But well I'm trying hard to conquer this problem hopefully it'll get better 8) YEP!

I got another problem of being too emotionally affected and controlled.
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I moodswing a lot (and I mean A LOT. Some might understand when they experience it first hand) and it gets me unproductive and grudgy and all. I always brainwash myself to think that I'm emotionally healed. But when something else comes along that's as bad or even worse, my hurt doubles. Triples. I don't know how much it weighs me down, how it makes me fail to accomplish my plans, how much it affects me. To put it figuratively, I put a plaster over my wound and think I'm fine. When the plaster drops off, the wound gets infected and history repeats. The emo and all time low period comes along and I rot away in a corner. BIG PROBLEM. I need to solve it big time. Once i conquer this I can do lots more (!!) I SO BELIEVE IN THIS. By God's grace I shall change for the better. (:

I am so convicted to grow! (I always say this and rot away somehow but it's gonna be different this time)

On a lighter note,

DAVID ARCHULETA IS COMING TO SINGAPORE! :DDDDDD

Still wondering how I can get to see him. Timings clash like mad ): Anyone wants to go with me? (: MUCH APPRECIATED hehe (: I conclude he's the first guy I've gone so mad over. Cross my heart! He's so squishy and huggable and cute and awesome heh <3